when your hearts talk...

U will never know when people turn on you..
then a devilish ideas come up..

I have friends,

but they betray me

I have best friends,

but they stab my back

I have a boyfriend, 

but he leaves me like I never exist

I have family, 

but they let me down

however, 

those things just make me stronger and tougher than ever

you can say 'turn me into ice, cold'

I no longer care about you 

as you never think about me

I will do whatever I want

I will be nice just if you are to me

But no, if you are not

I will be crueler than you ever think I can be

I will shut my mouth, no longer talkative

I won't be nice and friendly

I will do anything my way

If you can't deal with it

just quit

I will give you what you give me

But, if you take something from me which is not my will

I will take everything from you

You can say anything

I won't care

But, if I know you're hurting me

I will make that day the last time you can smile sincerely

Don't ever blame me

Because you, guys, who make me like this

And don't say that I have changed

different with what you have ever known

Because you never understand me

also stop pretending that you know me cause you don't

you never do

Just accept who I am now

If you can't

just leave

I won't force you

I won't ask you to stay

Just leave or stay

It's all up to you 

I don't care

I don't need anyone

I can't trust anyone

anymore

it's just so painful reading that..
huff..
yuph.. so devil..
we can sometimes think like that..
but then think again..

What's the matter with you??

Is it so hard to forget it and move forward??

Don't think about the past..

Don't think about the bad one..

Think the future..

It's all ahead, waiting for you..

Think the good one..

I'm sure you have one..

Don't let the bad ones cover it all..

Remember the feeling..

When you smile

When you are free

When you are spending time with them

When you give them gifts

When you share your life, happiness, and sadness

When you forgive

 That happy feeling will help you

Never ever forget it

Or your heart will be filled up with revenge and envy

Keep that in your mind

hahhh..

but I also know that it's hard..

easy to say, but so damn hard to do..

sometimes that ego and our uncontrollable emotion take over our heart, body, and mind that we can make mistakes, somethings stupid..

then what we can do is just regretting it..

I've felt that..

not good..

it's better if we can fix it..

but if we can't ??

we are all different, also when we think about some certain thing, it can be different  between one person and another..

but, just face it..

it's life.. and that's fact..

keep moving forward..

do what you can, and leave what you can't..

life is choosing.. choose wisely and you can live nicely..

sometimes to survive we have to do the orders..

again and again.. we feel forced..

but again, you still have the choice..

whether you choose to stay and keep doing it, or quit..

there are always choices, even when you think there isn't any..

Many things to learn..

but small chances.. 

you know this, and you apply it to your life..

but after sometime you will forget..

and you can fall again..

it's a warning..

get up, and walk again..

together.. forever..

Well, good night all !!

God bless you !!

c u

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