remember

I finally remember

how it is to be happy

how to let everything go as it should be

how not to push my luck

how not to forget my being

however i could easily forget my past

not just my childhood

few years ago

few months ago

even days ago

but now i remember

the point of it

may be i couldn't remember exactly

my happiness in the past

but now i know

how to gain another happiness

with another person

i try to let them flow

i try not to think too hard

i try not to let them influence me

let me down at last

now i remember

God holds me for once more

and that's how sincere smile can be finally seen

~

Sonnia Haryani